hey there baby

So I’m writing this blog post from the hospital as I wait for Erin to deliver. They’ve actually let me into her room which is pretty cool. And I’m here thinking about the cycle of things. Though it might not make sense I’m just starting to really understand that she’s going to have a baby.  It’s like we’ve all become used to her pregnancy but soon she’s going to have a child, and everything was going to change, again.

And I’m thinking about if you told me where I would be at this time last year I wouldn’t have believed you.  I wouldn’t have believed that my friendship with her would have survived but here we are. And I think about everyone else, and how much we’ve all changed. When we graduated almost a year ago we were filled with promises, some of them have been kept and others which have been forgotten.

Either way I don’t think any of us saw this coming, and by this I mean our lives. We always say that the future is a mystery but it is so much of one that we do not even comprehend how much we do not know.

I think this is a good thing, I think that if we always knew what was coming our lives would be far too much like an episode of “That’s So Raven”, and we would spend all of our time trying to fix our future wrongs or ensure good things happen. If there is such thing as destiny I think we’re better off not knowing it.

The fact of the matter is that the things that make us happy are never the things we expect. The boy we agree to go to prom with becomes our first serious boyfriend, our former life goal becomes a hobby, the people we expected to be close with for the rest of our lives aren’t.

And we have to learn to take that, to change and adapt. Here waiting for the baby to be born, listening to mothers scream until they give birth to their screaming children we are filled with possibility. These children have no choice being born into this world of global warming, violence, hatred and budget cuts but they’re here anyways. And they’re loved.

In the end that is all any of us can ask for.